Daily/Weekly Survivor Vlogs

As difficult as it is to do video blogs let alone daily or weekly, they really are helping me to process what is been going on in my brain for all these years. I would like to say that I’m than to be doing daily blogs but at this point I think it’s going to be more of a weekly thing. Is a daily log something that you would like to see? I think it would be good for me to dedicate to something on a daily basis. Life is…

Effects of Sharing My Story of Childhood Sexual Abuse and My PTSD

When I started to share about my past and surviving childhood sexual abuse and partner rape I wasn’t expecting the outpouring of love and support. I certainly wasn’t expecting the “thank you” I received from many who also have PTSD, are going through depression, and have anxiety. It felt great to not be alone but then I was a little sad too that SO MANY people are suffering and suffering by themselves, not telling anyone. Let me tell you what I thought might happen which freaked me out a little…

Sexual Abuse and PTSD

I was diagnosed with PTSD at 11 years old. I wasn’t told much about it at the time other than its what the soldiers have. To my 11 year old brain, this meant I was a soldier and then I thought I was a BADASS(if only for a brief moment). Remembering this makes me smile. I didn’t realise until later how true that was. Living with PTSD is very difficult. The anxiety I feel that comes along with it can be paralysing. I filmed the above video to show others…

Is Being In the Industry Hurting me?

This was a question that a someone recently asked me about being in the industry and if it was repeating my abuse. This comes up occasionally when someone finds out that I am an adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse. They associate the 2 as cause and effect. I know many people that were not abused that have made similar choices. I don’t think the 2 are mutually exclusive but instead of the industry hurting me or causing me more pain, it has not. In many ways the industry has…