Coping with Peace Instead of Abuse

Around the beginning of September I started to experience a big increase in insomnia, nightmares,  flashbacks, anxiety, and other CPTSD symptoms. I have had some time to think about this increase in symptoms and why the cycle has started up seemingly out of the blue. It’s not out of nowhere though. When you are in the thick of things, it can be difficult to see clearly what is going on. I am coping with less abuse. I didn’t realize that I was putting up with so much until I wasn’t.…

Abuse Survivor Blog New Vlog Today October 3, 2019

New Abuse Survivor Blog Vlog posted today on youtube and a longer more detailed vlog is posting up on my Patreon.com/sarahgarlits The youtube video is a quick update. The Patreon video is a more detailed video of how I am doing. It is about 10 minutes long. -Click HERE to watch the longer Vlog

Abuse Survivor Vlogs Over on My Patreon and an Update on Me

Watercolor cover art for abuse survivor blog

There are new Abuse Survivor Vlogs posted up over at my https://www.patreon.com/sarahgarlits I do share a lot openly on twitter but some things I just want to keep more private now. I am also not sure about their TOS at times and don’t want to get my account limited for blowing off some much needed steam. I’ll be posting that over on my Patreon account for you to view there. Also, when I talk about suicidal ideation I tend to want to keep those more private. They are more difficult…

New Abuse Survivor Blog Video Diary Sept 25th, 2019

New Abuse Survivor Blog video diary for today. I haven’t done one of these in a long time. I take you with me for a little walk in the woods near my house. Walking in nature really helps me to relax. Plus, I get to see all the cool trees and huge rocks on the property. I tell you about my new job and the other changes going on in my life right now. Some sad news too but I try to keep things as upbeat as possible. I even…

New Poll – What Would Assist You the Most?

What would assist your the most right now? Stress management? Coping with anxiety, mindfulness through art? So, I need your help right now. I have so many things that I wish to share with you and to cover on this blog. I also want to be helpful and if there is a direction that could help you the most, dear reader, I want to go in that direction. I will still be sharing my story and journey through healing but I wanted to add more helpful content for my fellow…

Understanding It Wasn’t Your Fault – Stages of Healing

One of the stages of healing from childhood sexual abuse, rape, or any abuse for that matter is to understanding that it was not your fault. Someone chose to abuse you. That is on them. There is no shame in love and trust. They are both beautiful things to have in this life. Love and trust did not hurt you. The PERPETRATOR chose to abuse you. It is normal to blame yourself. It can be easier to believe that we are somehow flawed instead of thinking that someone that cares…

Realizations

I had a realization and its been kind at the forefront of my mind lately. There is a lot of talk about letting go and moving on. As I sit here I realize that with complex PTSD I may never get to that “end point” in healing. That is not very realistic. This isn’t a stubbed toe and one day I will wake up all better and symptom free. I don’t heal as much as I learn. I mean that many people, including myself, think of healing as though one…

Successfully moved to NY – Free Writing

I haven’t written much here as I was mostly posting on my twitter account. Threads and bite sized thoughts/posts was easier for me at the time. I have made it to NY and I am getting settled in. It has been wonder to be out in nature. There is a refreshing and healing quality to it. Next week I am getting more things done like getting back into therapy. I found a therapist and filled out my intake forms for the 1st evaluation session. Hopefully, this new therapist and I…

Dealing with Uncovered Memories of Abuse

Periodically, I receive what I call new memories. They aren’t new but repressed memories that my brain decided to hold back from me until I was able to handle them. How it decides that I am able to handle more memories of abuse is a bit lost on me but whatever, here I am. Over time and with practice in being self aware I can usually spot the changes in myself to indicate a new memory. Warning signs include insomnia, sadness with no discernable source, feeling off with my skin…

New Vlog Post October 15, 2018

Click here or on the pic above to go to my Patreon account and check out the new video! It’s about 10 minutes. More to come as I get more videos edited. I posted a new vlog this week. I’ve been filming nearly every day to track my progress through my healing journey. Becoming a Patron starts at just $3. I’m still working out how I’m going to be expanding my Patreon. I would love the feedback if you would like to share. Thank you!