Coping with Peace Instead of Abuse

Around the beginning of September I started to experience a big increase in insomnia, nightmares,  flashbacks, anxiety, and other CPTSD symptoms. I have had some time to think about this increase in symptoms and why the cycle has started up seemingly out of the blue. It’s not out of nowhere though. When you are in the thick of things, it can be difficult to see clearly what is going on. I am coping with less abuse. I didn’t realize that I was putting up with so much until I wasn’t.…

Abuse Survivor Blog New Vlog Today October 3, 2019

New Abuse Survivor Blog Vlog posted today on youtube and a longer more detailed vlog is posting up on my Patreon.com/sarahgarlits The youtube video is a quick update. The Patreon video is a more detailed video of how I am doing. It is about 10 minutes long. -Click HERE to watch the longer Vlog

How to Find a Therapist

Figuring out how to find a therapist can seem like a daunting task. Hopefully, reading this blog entry will help you if you feel stuck and aren’t sure of what to do. Step 1 of How To Find a Therapist: Deciding to hire a therapist  You have committed to bettering yourself and are enlisting the help of an expert by hiring a therapist. That’s right, you are hiring someone to assist you in feeling better, getting to your goals, consulting with you to learning coping strategies, and/or treating you a…

Take Me with You

A letter to Myself. I have written many of these over the years. The post pic of some of those letters. It scares me sometimes because all the selves in my start talking at once in my head. It scared me that I was all these selves before. I’m really trying to accept this about myself and love myself. RADICAL ACCEPTANCE! So, here’s a love letter: Dear Sarah, Take me with you when you need strength. Know that someone loves you and hold a safe place for you to be…

Survivor Vlog October 1, 2018

New  PTSD video Diary Teaser You can watch the full pt 1 vlog on my Patreon http://www.patreon.com/SarahGarlits Part 2 posts later this week. 🙂 Where else can you find me? Support my art, writings, survivor blog, youtube channel and more here: http://www.patreon.com/SarahGarlits Social Media: http://www.twitter.com/SarahGarlits –I’m most active and interactive here http://www.facebook.com/sarahgarlitshttp://www.youtube.com/SarahGarlits http://www.youtube.com/SarahGarlits – My channel Blog and contact me: http://www.abusesurvivorblog.com Link to information found in this video: I am not affiliated with this company but wanted to pass the info along to other survivors. Great information and they have…

Remembering – Stages of Healing

Remembering is another stage in the healing process. When I was 10 years old memories of child sexual abuse that I suffered came back to me during a class assembly. Right there in front of everyone, the memories came crashing in. It roared in my ear and black came in around my peripheral vision. I felt like I was being sucked into the back of my head and everything was going black. I started to fight it but it was no use. All the sudden I was 3 years old…

Abuse Survivor Blog Wins an Award

My abuse survivor blog has won an award! They gave me a badge for my website.  I have the #8 out of top 15 blogs about child abuse. This was unexpected but it’s encouraging me to keep going. Sometimes I post a lot, sometimes very little. It is still difficult to stay consistent. My healing is still up and down but I’m finding my way. Here’s my award ribbon! Other blog news: I’m going to be working on posting my video posts that I took off of YouTube. You will…

I Have a Lot to Live For

I could tell you about my suicide attempts, the thoughts of wanting it to end, and the events that led me to want to die. I have a lot to live for though and that is more exciting. Yes, I suffer, but whatever, I’m a human. I’ve been through a lot of terrible things but I am still here. For much of my life I didn’t want to live. I did it anyway. I carried on. Four years ago I crashed hard. I made it through. Changes were made. I…

Free Writing May 26, 2018

I miss touch. I don’t trust touch, but I miss it. I’m afraid of kindness and nice touches. I’m tensed up for the worst, the pain, the coldness and the searing pain. I am armored against it. I am afraid of touch. My sense of safe touch is not accurate. Like language, abusers used soft touch to lure trust and cultivate the want for safe loving touch only to take advantage of that trust. That is grooming. How can I tell who is grooming me? I realize my solution was…

PTSD Episode

My anxiety and insomnia are back again. I’m in another PTSD Episode. This happens and will happen again and again as I move through my life. The duration of the episodes get shorter and recovery time from the episodes grow shorter. I am becoming more resilient by practicing self care and self compassion like my life depends on it. Because it does. I feel more prepared to take care of myself now. Knowing what is happening and having a plan to take care of myself helps me so much during…